2 in the night,
Emotions on top,
Feelings on the verge,
Anxiety on the peak,
But stress needed to be released.
Yes, that is me every day at 2 AM.
3 in the night,
I am trying to sleep,
Hiding all my emotions beneath,
Striving hard to forget and forgive,
But this heart is aching and still,
Yes, I am missing him in all my chills.
4 in the night,
I am steady and tight,
I breathe as though to get some relief,
But oxygen ain’t helping because my eyes need his sight.
Yes, I am betraying myself and falling for the not so perfect love again.
5 in the morning,
The sun is up and I didn’t sleep too,
I’ve been awake for days and night,
My mind and heart being panicked by the ache,
My days went waiting for you and nights spent cursing you.
Yes, I am going worse day by day, again.
6 in the morning,
The nation is up,
Emotions on peak again and feelings still ready to flush out of me anytime soon,
Eyes still wondering when can they get a sight of you,
Heart still aching but bleeding this time just to feel you,
Yes, it’s hard to come out of you now.
My day has been started,
I am fighting,
And stopping myself,
Stopping, But urging too,
Panicking a lot, but calming too,
Been bleeding too much, but holding the blood too.
But somehow I have passed a half day without you.
Now comes the evening,
Where I have gone all high and stoned,
Out of my senses, calling his name, loud and moan,
I went all dry for quite some time, while I just had hit a blown,
I wished you were still here to have my back and be my bone,
To hold me strong and never let me feel alone.
Yes, I can feel the need of having you back in my life.
12 in the night,
The need arose again,
Can’t find you around and I am panicking again,
Still trying to hold on to what we were before,
But this time my Darling, with no efforts but a war.
2 in the night again,
You called by a chance,
My heart skipped a beat
And had an urge to talk.
My mind was blown,
And shattered and frown,
My ache got lighter,
As I picked up the phone.
My anxiety and ache went off,
I heard you again and tears came off.
You wanted to talk but your emotions kept you shut,
I want to listen but my feelings were abutted.
I had a hope of getting you back,
But they taught me that hope is something that dies in the end.
You cut the phone and didn’t speak at all,
I went to my turbulence,
Once and for all.
No point in telling you what you meant to me or what you mean to me,
But for one last time, I’ll say it all.
Please call me back, I wanna hear you once more,
And tell you stories of my broken chore.
My heart needs your sight, to feel alive.
Just how my soul needs you in the night to hold you tight.
I fell once again,
Once and for all,
Please call me back,
Before my heart turns black.
I remember the gods land where we met,
And the night thereafter when we shared our sweat.
The bed, the cushions, the sheet and the pillow,
They still smell of us but our love went hollow.
Let’s go back there and see the beauty,
As your name justifies you see the beauty in everything that comes to your site.
Let’s go there and breathe again,
Feel again, live again, love again and cherish all the time we had there, again.
Let’s live, together, again.
I have flushed my heart out, loud and clear,
I wish you hear me without me being audible and sheer.
Once again my bubba, I fell in love with you,
Your amazing voice is still hard to blear.
These 2 AMs’and 3 AMs’ would continue for some time. But someday my dear, I’ll fall out of love and it’s fear.
Well, it’s 4 AM now,
I am still trying to be steady and tight,
And catch a breath, to feel alive.
Once again, it is bleeding and aching,
But this time my love, with a little hope of having you back in my life.
P.S.- ‘BACCHO SE KYA BOLENGE?’ Is my favourite memory.
P.S.S.- PDA is shit. Get back to reality.
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